I cannot help but smile. God is beyond amazing. Yes, life happens. Circumstances happen. Sometimes they are good and sometimes they are less than desirable. But regardless, I try to smile. I try to look up, with my head held high. Jesus takes care of me. This past month has been extremely challenging to me in more ways than one- spiritually, physically, emotionally, and even mentally. Finishing up a masters degree is taking every bit of strength out of me. It is mentally draining. Physically, I am getting surgery on my foot that has basically been the thorn in my side the past 7 months. I am at a new job in a position that not all people support. But I know I am supposed to be here. Spiritually and emotionally the transition of so much is colliding with my heart and reality. Granted, right now I love where I am at. Life is just a roller coaster. But with all of this I can’t help but smile because I can see the beauty through clouds. Like gazing at a starry night, with some clouds, the beauty still remains- you just have to wait for the clouds to pass and clear. The things that are unclear right now force me to just simply wait. I have to wait and see what God is going to do. The desires of my heart ache and long for that which is deep within. Wait. Don’t push. Just wait. That is all I can do. This beautiful collision of my heart and God’s will is worth waiting for if it means I get to see the life God intends for me. Oh, this unexpected beauty makes me smile. No matter what. I am at a place- finally- where I can just rest and be at peace. And wait, because I know My God will not forget me or lead me somewhere without his guidance. In Christ alone I trust. Nothing else matters.
“Trust God from the bottom of your heart; don’t try to figure everything out on your own. Listen for God’s voice in everything you do, everywhere you go; he’s the one who will keep you on track. Don’t assume you know it all! Run to God…”