God… all i want is to Be Near to You. is that really hard to ask? i try hard but God its never enough for You. its never enough for even me to be satisfied. God i don’t just want to stop where i know i can…but God…i want to stretch beyond what i feel i can do. You know my heart better than anyone else. God please i hate how i continue to flee then return just to flee again. please HELP ME LORD. i don’t want to live as a fugitive from Your name. please let Your hand of grace and mercy fall on me RIGHT NOW!! God we have youth convention this weekend…i want to become radical before arriving to the church. i want Your freedom again. i desire Your mercy again. i need Your grace again.