I can’t help it.
I want to love. I want to be loved.
I see so many people in relationships, dating or marriage. It gets frustrating being the single one. Even worse, it gets frustrating when I am never even desired by a guy. But I don’t want to settle for just anything. In this past year I have discovered who I am- who God is shaping me to be. But why can’t it be my chance for true love, not just a romance? I don’t just want a boyfriend. I don’t want a date. I want my husband. I want the covenant love that was designed by Glory.
I know God has purpose for everything. I try to stay positive. I try to not worry. Actually this past year and a half I have been falling in love with a man. Its strange actually. I don’t fully understand. I pray for this man everyday- my husband. I have no idea who this person is or where in the world he might be. I just know I love him.
How can I be so in love with a man that I have never met? How can I be so in love with this stranger? Is he a stranger at all? Do I already know him?
These questions penetrate my mind and thoughts as I talk with my Lord. I have had unusual contentment and peace about being single. But, of course, I have my moments, like tonight, that I just truly wish I could be with that man, whoever he may be. But tonight I am not. Not yet. Not now. I can only pray soft prayers for him: for safety and security; for growth and maturity; for love and passion. Somewhere in this world, tonight he is. I pray for you, distant stranger. I pray God quiets this longing heart until the right time.
I love you.