“a spirit of prostitution leads them astray, they are unfaithful to their God…”
-hosea 4:12b

every day in our lives…we PROSTITUTE our spirit…we give our entire mind and maybe body completely devouted to everything else BUT GOD… thats’ exactly what this prostitution is!! we allow this distraction to take our focus and attention off of God and onto something else…we become unfaithful.  this unfaithfulness is the exact thing that an adultress wife does to her husband.  she cheats on her beloved…her husband by giving her focus, time, attention to someone else!! then she returns to him as if NOTHING ever happened…a lie.  i am so sick of continually doing that to God.  I AM SICK AND TIRED OF HAVING THIS SPIRIT OF PROSTITUTION!!…yeah so i am not an actual prostitute but its the principle of the matter….and i am sick of remaining UNFAITHFUL to my God…the one God that takes me back everytime after i screw up!! he always lets me return to him!! on this early morning of easter….i have to say without christ dying…i would forever remain in this circumstance…but i have to thank jesus for his sacrifice knowing that even if i do screw up…he is there ready to take me back!!!

life is insane and wierd at times.  it can be very confusing. haha i know thats how i am right now.  uh!! yeah so i am just gonna go with the flow and hope something great happens.  GOD ITS ALL TO YOU….even the small stuff!!!

God you know the reasons for everything. you know why things happen.  you understand everything, though not it may not all be revealed to me. i don’t always comprehend why things occur, people get hurt, or families are broken…i don’t understand!! God your mystery keeps me intrigued by you though at times i am hurt or confused.  why did she have to die leaving behind their teenage daughters? why can’t he understand why i did this? why can’t people just listen for a change? why don’t they rely on you?!?!?!?! God there are so many questions and no answers for them.  i just ask you to be with them all.  be near to them!!! be near to him!! be near to ME!!!!!!!!!

AH!!!!!!!!!!!! i’m going crazy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

GOD I NEED YOU SO CLOSE!! PLEASE PLEASE GOD I SURRENDER MY LIFE BEFORE YOU~~I AM YOURS!!!!!

How long I have waited for you,
For you have stolen my heart.

Now I am ruined for anything less,
I could live forever in your arms.
My heart belongs to only one love,
My beloved, my beloved, my beloved.

I am yours and you are mine

 

God is awesome and so amazing!!  he is so in love with us and WANTS us to love him back!! he is RUINED WITHOUT OUR LOVE~~ANYTHING LESS FROM US!! 

So many times in life we think of whether we have the ability to make a difference with the life we’ve been given. This picture was taken by me as I stood over the tracks that led to a concentration camp. This particular section of the tracks shows that 428 Jews or Judan were killed. As I took this picture and even now, I think about what there is that I can do. What can I do with my life to make a difference in this world while so many people are still dying? What can I do with my ONE LIFE? What can I do with the ONE CHANCE that God has given me here? I have so many opportunities that come up all around me. So many people need to hear the truth about God’s grace, love and mercy before DEATH. We all have a chance to reach out to our world. My shadow in the picture reminds me that we all have the end to our train tracks: so what will you do with the time you’ve been given?

GOD I NEED YOU SO MUCH RIGHT NOW!!!!!!!!

everyday in my life i have so many realizations about God…but today God has truly revealed more to me!!!  GOD IS GOD YESTERDAY TODAY AND FOREVER….HE IS “I AM”…. no matter what you are struggling with or dealing with or circumstances you are faced with…he is there!! IN DEATH GOD IS RIGHT THERE WITH YOU!!! he wants you to enjoy life and to its fullest…BUT HE WANTS YOU TO FOLLOW HIS PLAN FOR YOU….regardless of what you faced with!!  there is so much crap we can be faced with that just pay knock us down…GET BACK UP and allow God to work in your life!!!! don’t let a death destroy you…let God work in your life and let him GET THE BEST OF YOU!!!!!!!!!!!

RIP Francis Bacon…
     {message to Pattie…God has something awesome for you even in something life death
       of a loved one…just trust God ENTIRELY!!}

NAMELESS

gun shots they happen so fast
life isn’t worth, it doesn’t last
desperate boy, his life gone loose
hopeless measure, man made noose
a single stabbing of a girl
the spinning, shaking-the world-its swirl
an international plague of death
haunts our every step-no breath
a valley full of lifeless bones; the dead
their hope is gone, the pain they dread
how many really deserve their fate?
how many deserved such malice, hate?
all i can ask and plead is why
do we really all follow this tremendous lie
that leads us down an endless path
of darkness and of death? Hath
we nothing that deserves us life?
shall we continue along this desperate strife?
is there anything else to stop- erupt
the feelings, hate of the corrupt
men who they themselves are lacking
all desire for a future but hacking
at their lives. they’d never care if it’d cease
is there anyone who can pick up every piece
of the broken hearts and shattered flesh?
yet there is one who can mend and mesh
every spirit and soul of man
in simple words he says “i can”
for he himself on him was lain
the burden of suffering, all the world’s pain
with every struggle, man can cope
for one man became our ultimate hope
honestly people…will anyone go?
a dying world but no love we show
we’re given times and choices to choose
opportunities arise, however we lose
look at your life, that one life that you live
you have little time to finally give
go reach out, hearts beat-so dance
for God has given you only one chance