here is my prayer to YOU:

God i give you me…i ask for you to help me in every area of my life.  i want so badly to live a live so worthy for you…so help me.  i ask you to give me strength and encouragement and WISDOM everywhere.  i never ever want to give up or give in…I WAS NOT MADE TO COMPROMISE….so God i ask for you…be with me.  anoint me and i beg for you anoint me.  burn a fire in my heart for you.  i sacrifice my will for yours. 

I GIVE YOU MY WORLD…NOW GIVE ME YOURS!!!!!!!!!!

everything about God ASTOUNDS ME!!! i can not get through one day without being touched by him.  everyday he surprises me with so much more than i can expect.  i went to the winter youth retreat PURIFY….and i realized this: God can PURIFY me no matter what i have done.  no matter how much you slip up or how often you screw up….God is there and just wants you to return to him and cry out to him!!  if you give him everything from decisions to addictions to sins to school to relations…God will help you no matter HOW DEEP YOU GOT YOURSELF!!!! he wants you to be happy so he can bless you and reveal to you how much he has planned for you!!! i know in the last week he has EXTREMELY BLESSED ME!!! he has helped me realize that his purpose he has for me is awesome even if its not all revealed at once.  he has brought a few good friends into my life that are changing me completely.  God rocks!!! hands down!!!!!!!!

AH!!  GOD IS AWESOME!!!!!!! ENOUGH SAID!!!

SNOW IS EVERYWHERE!!  but the thing is…i love snow.  i adore snow.  it covers everything. changes the scenery.  it disquises the dirty and makes the most ugly things beautiful.  how could anyone hate this wonder!?!  what i think of everytime i even see a snow flake i think of God’s grace and his undying LOVE that can PURIFY our lives.  if you think about it our lives are like the snow and land.  we are so often covered in crap and ugliness {sin} but then God’s grace falls on us flake by flake and covers us with him and purifies us.  makes our dirtiest secrets, sins, whatever white and clean.  i am reminded of this everytime it snows…and i will never forget that in snow there is a promise God gives us…that regardless how many times we have screwed up…he is there and cleanses us!! I LOVE GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!

wow…GOD IS TRULY AMAZING!!!! so much crap can be thrown at you and you just need to trust in God and know everything will be all right. earlier in the month of January i had been told i was accepted to Southeastern University however last week after my tried calling about financial aid information she was told that i had been put back into the pile of applications for more reviews. i was sooo mad and angry. i was beginning to doubt why God had me apply there but then have me not accepted. and i was so confused as to what would happen. well today i finally got a call from southeastern u. my new admissions counselor called me and told me i was accpeted as well as receiving an academic scholarship. last night i had prayed for about 30/45 minutes about college as well as other issues and i finally jsut said i would trust him. well today proved that the person who trusts God and doesnt waver…will get the desires of their heart. ah I LOVE GOD!!!!

i am soooooo excited because my 18th birthday party is TOMORROW!!!! my youth group is coming and my friends are all coming…ANGELINA!!!!!!!! woohoo!!!! 

 

I AM ALMOST 18!!!!!!!!!!!

i just saw an advertisment for discovery channel about REBUILT, the show about the human body getting restructured after something tragic occurs.  then something hit me… one of the people said

“you fall….so what?? get back up”

so this should be something we do….go and get back up and don’t be afraid.  so what if you got problems…get over it. i dont mean to sound rude but it could always be worse.  why try to enhance your problems by dwelling in your problems?? its just really something to think about.  you look at the people who are on the show REBUILT and they are people who lost legs, arms, hands, whatever….and they get a prostetic arm or leg or something.  when someone receives a prostetic leg, they are guaranteed to fall.  but every time they fall, they persevere and GET BACK ON THEIR FEET.  so when you screw up or mess up or make a mistake…so what?? yeah ya might have done something that you shouldn’t have done but you realize it and stand back up. 

 

so amazing…God astounds me everyday.  though so many times crap comes about, he still finds ways to get us through it.  i have realized recently that we have DEVASTION in our lives…trials and crap.  but with that we should become lost in God and go for him.  our DESPERATION for God will keep us going regardless of our situations.  go for him!!!

guys today i spent the day, not in a school chair and desk. i was at the Cooper Trauma Center. i did not go on the trip as a day off of school, but i went as a way to see for real, the reality of life AND death. when we arrived to the hospital, we were taken upstairs to see the helipad, where the helicopters land and people receive IMMEDIATE help. there we were told stories of people who decided not to take seriously their life….therefore they DIED. i was standing in a room, that when and emergency arrives, it becomes red in seconds to few minutes. thats how quick life can be lost. we went to the trauma unit and saw people who survived the trauma, however were left with the scars and wounds from their’s or other people’s CHOICES. we lastly went to the morgue…in case you didn’t know…that is the place where the dead bodies are placed. now what is my reason for posting this?? who the heck knows…maybe its because i realized today more than anything… that GOD IS OUR ANSWER!! that you people who continually ignore the STOP SIGNS IN LIFE….you will end up in the trauma center then the morgue… because you were a foolish idiot who decided not to care. you see the choices we make daily, decide our existence tomorrow… or rather whats left of our existence. you may speed then wrap yourself around a tree…and then whatever is left of you has to live with that. or you may drink or take a drug and then have to be pumped. or you may try to kill yourself, but the suicide fails and you are left with only half you face cause you blew the other half off. guys these choices, actions will live by…CAN AND WILL KILL. why can’t that be all the more reason to CHOOSE to live at least a life of certainty. i know i am certain taht when i die i will see God and enter with joy. sadly that is not true for everyone. think about what you do. people care about you. I CARE ABOUT YOU. GOD CARES ABOUT YOU. he loves you and doesnt want to see you do something idiotic because you were drunk or high or just plain dumb. he wants you to be able to see your 18th bday or be able to have a wedding or graduate. THINK ABOUT WHAT YOU DO!! please guys….just think…its not a game. its about life and how you live it and what you live for. also what you DIE for.

sometimes in our lives we have struggles, weaknesses, and situations that face us.  so many of those times we get scared and ask God to just deliver us.  thats understandable to not want to go through something.  but see God wants us to learn all we can.  he wants us to grow and become stronger.  you can’t just always run away scared of going through life. this song by Charity Von simply shows her saying to God to TAKE HER THROUGH IT…as in whatever you are being faced with…God will get you through it.  so have faith…

 

VERSE 1

traveling down this road alone this road called destiny
its steep and narrow, feels like no one’s next to me 
i’ve fallen down a time or two and this You know  
but i’m calling out to You I don’t wanna walk alone
Can you hear my desperate plea
I need You now to rescue me

CHORUS

take me through it, i can’t do it now
don’t know how so tired of losing
take me through it, i can’t do this now
don’t know how that’s why i am choosing

VERSE 2

never did i think that i would walk this beaten path
but, now that i am here i know that it will last
i’ll give You everything my heart, my will, my soul
so i’m calling out to You i don’t wanna walk alone
can you hear my desperate plea
i need You now to rescue me

don’t know how
don’t know why
don’t know when